| What a Guy Can Do to Make Me Unhappy |
[Apr. 23rd, 2007|09:37 am] |
I'm going through a break up and thought ranting about it here would help me out a little. I've been seeing someone for a few weeks, treated our circumstances as a whirlwind romance, and have learned a lesson from jumping into something too quickly. The idea of someone new is always exciting, you think their common interests with you are heaven sent and your head begins to plunge into thoughts of a future together, improving together and eventually loving each other. You turn a blind eye to traits that you would normally label off as a deal breaker, but you're blind, and you don't consider them a problem, and then you get miserable. This is where I find myself, at the end of that previous sentence.
So to help me forget that I've become somewhat dependent on him I have compiled a list of things that ultimately lead me to ending things and taking a step back.
1. Never call
2. No anticipation in seeing me
3. Doesn't tell me how he feels
4. Doesn't want to discuss our issues
5. Would rather hang out with his buddies than see me
6. His only means of communication is text messaging
This list helps. After reading it over a few times and imagining myself looking inward at the situation, it's hard to think I actually put up with this for as long as I did. Do not get me wrong, he is a wonderful guy and has a lot of redeeming qualities about him, however, I cannot do this any longer.
On the flipside, not everyone is perfect. We all have our issues. But to what extent do you try to overcome? 3 weeks into a "relationship" where maybe 1 weekend and a handful of days were actually good and the remaining were just miserable, unanswered days of drama, do not seem like a solid foundation to get to know each other on.
I would have done anything for this guy. He was really special. But for my own sanity, I cannot wake up crying my eyes out in the morning. I cannot beg like a puppy dog to see him to just be turned down every single time. I do not want to be angry at him for not taking account for my needs. It's not his responsibility, it's mine. |
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